“I was blessed by having cancer,” I often tell others.
No, I would not have authored it.
Oh, I pray I never repeat it.
Yes, God did the impossible: He brought good from it.
While the “good He brought from it” could be segmented into many categories, today I will share one: God can be trusted.
I learned that, no matter what, I can trust Him.
Trust Him to supply all my needs.
Trust Him to care for my family.
Trust Him to carry me through –anything and everything – and never, ever, leave me alone on my own.
While four surgeries, five months of chemotherapy, twenty-eight radiation treatments, and a full year of IV Herceptin therapy were certainly not fun, I trusted God to carry me through.
I didn’t have the physical strength on my own.
I didn’t have the positive attitude on my own.
I didn’t have the faith on my own.
I had to trust Him. Otherwise, I might as well just give up. There was nothing I could possibly do. Cancer was just too big a mountain to climb and conquer alone.
I had to trust Him.
And, He never let me down.
Were there hard days?
YES!
Were there days I wanted out?
Definitely YES!
Were there days I thought I would literally die?
Most certainly YES!But He never let me go.
- He provide people to bridge the gap. He used people to cook meals for my young family, drive me to chemo, and support us.
- His presence never left me. When I asked for Him to infuse my mind with positive things, I recalled His promises. His children would send me words of encouragement and He held every tear I cried.
- He provided for every need- physical, emotional, spiritual. When I felt I could go no longer, I asked for faith.
He supplied it.
Waiting three months for test results indicating if the cancer were gone – I asked for patience.
He supplied it. I never dreamed that time could ever go so fast.
Whatever I asked – He supplied … in abundance.
I imagine the next question you might have: didn’t you ever ask for healing?
YES! EVERYDAY! Multiple times a day! But as time went on, I added to that prayer. Always care for my family. Teach me what I’m to learn going through this.
He did always care for my family then and now. He did heal me and I’m so glad I get to be one of the main people He uses to help care for my family!
And, He did teach me several things, one of the largest looming in my mind: He can be trusted!
I don’t pen that lightly.
He doesn’t always stop the unthinkable from happening. Or necessarily limit your number of crises.
He doesn’t always halt the heartbreak. Or take my word that I’ve had enough drama for one lifetime, or even one season.
But He does promise to be there every step of the disaster, carrying me through, supplying my needs, and comforting me as He catches my tears.
I don’t know what crisis, disaster, or heartbreak you face today. I can’t tell you all the reasons why God did not stop it.
I know it doesn’t seem fair.
I know your circumstance may cause you to question His character, His love, His faithfulness.
I also know, know beyond a shadow of a doubt, He will redeem even this.
He is God.
He loves you.
He’s in control.
He can be trusted.
Please feel free to ask for pray in the comments or by private message.
Prayer: Dear Heavenly Father, You see me, You know. Please fulfill my needs to get through even this. Fulfill my physical needs, emotional needs and build my faith as I learn to trust You.
I trust some how, some way, some day, You will redeem even this.
Thank You, in Jesus’ name, Amen.