“Blessed is the one who delights in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on His law day and night.” Psalm 1:2 (NIV, emphasis mine)
The word burned in my mind: blessed. I knew I was blessed. I could force myself to see outside my little whirlwind world and count my many blessings. I just wasn’t feeling it.
I was tired. I was overwhelmed. I was negative. Very, very unlike me.
What is up with my attitude?
Psalm 1:2 focused me on my folly.
In the busyness I had not read my Bible much. My prayers were rushed whispers blotted out by the screams of the day’s demands. I was not delighted in the least because I had not decided to make time for what is important, what keeps my heart and mind positive, and what is vital to my very soul.
Why is it so easy to push away God when life gets crazy?
Oh, I hold on to Him tightly in the Big-Time Craziness. Birth of a new baby, moving across state lines, cancer.
But “Standard Craziness?” Juggling work, home and homework? Deciding who gets to clean up after the puppy? Who will discipline the kids tonight?
Not so much.
I had allowed myself to become consumed by life’s craziness and take over my precious time with God.
And then I wonder why my heart is empty while my plate is full.
Maybe you can relate.
Do you contentedly gaze at your to-do list with great anticipation about the next hours? Are you delighting in your blessings each day?
Have you made time with God?
I am learning, spending time with Him can make all the difference on my day and whether or not I can delight in it.